I recently lost my grandmother. It was unexpected and sudden.

It hurts.

She raised me for most of my childhood, so it feel like losing a parent. In fact, it's the first time I've ever lost someone close.

I'm 40 now; I know that more loss is coming soon.

It hurts. It's also an unreal feeling. I'll occasionally go to call her because I haven't talked to her for a while, and within a split second, I realize she's gone. That stops me for a moment and saddens me.

But death is life. There is nothing we can do to stop it from eventually happening.

The feeling of missing someone hurts more than losing them.